Mid Life Crisis

Is it too early for a mid-life crisis?  Someone please tell me it is too early.  I'm only 35.

Or maybe I'm going crazy.

I'm not sure which is more disturbing to think about - a mid life crisis at 35 or going crazy.  I'm fairly certain there are meds for crazy folks that make you seem normal, so I've decided to opt for crazy.  I'm a firm believer in the power of medication.

This is one of those naked posts - It's all hanging out there.  Bear with me.  It is still up for debate if I will actually push the "Publish" button.

Tomorrow it is back to work after the weekend.  I am to attend the Leadership Forum with all the other people in leadership at MSHA.  I'll be honest:  I'd rather hang from my toe nails than attend.  They gave us all "pre-work" (aka homework) to complete prior to our arrival.  I did manage to print it off, but I have yet to do anything with it.  It's 10 pm and I have to leave here at 7:30 to be there on time.  It is not going to happen, folks.  I wish I could care....but I just don't.

I don't know what it is I want, but I am certain this is not it.  I think, anyway.

Is it normal to have to drag yourself out of bed every single day with dread over going to work?  I get it, we don't all love going to work....
Why?
Why, when we only get one shot and no guarantee of tomorrow, do we settle for less than our best?

It's time for bed.  Too much on my little mind.  Call me crazy.